Wow. I'm blogging??? I'm blogging. I'm blogging!!! This might not seem like much to most people, but, to me, it's a huge step. This has been a secret dream living in my head for years now. With the help of my beautiful, manipulative mind, I've never pursued actually starting a blog until now. I'm blogging!
This dream originated from when I was a little girl who loved to write stories, songs, and anything someone could read. I told all my friends and family that I'd be a world traveling journalist when I grew up. I loved the idea of creating something raw and amazing that other people would read and maybe even think it was raw and amazing as well. Although this dream has stayed hidden in the corners of my mind for a long time, I've never acted on it. Well, besides the class assigned 11th grade blog, thousands of private journal entries, and even a few newsletters I created for my family when I first moved 1,000 miles away. The common theme among all of them is that they were short-lived and sporadic. I never turly let myself dive into writing and would always find a reason not to. Whether that be I didn't have time, no one would care, people would judge me, or it was just a dream that didn't need to be written. There was always a reason or an excuse that pushed this off.
For those who don't know me, I'm the type of person who likes to plan. Actually, who loves to plan. And that's also a part of why a blog has never come to fruition. I always thought I had to have a certain number of blogs planned out, a brand created, a following started, or even at least I needed to tell my friends and family. I was trying to plan what's unplannable. Is that a word? Anywho, I'm not letting that be a reason for me to push this dream off any longer.
So for now I can't promise a blog every day, every week, or even every month. However, I do promise that what I write is real and raw and authentically me. While I'm learning this new world of blogging and being vulnerable on the internet, bear with me. My hopes and dreams (for now) is just to start. I'll figure it out from there and will take it day by day (or should I say blog by blog). Thank you for riding this wave with me and giving me grace to fail, have some grammatical errors, and just to be me. And to myself (even thought this whole blog is really since no one knows about it yet), just remember, this dream has a purpose and, although, you might not realize it right now, God has a plan. Trust that and just keep blogging.
XOXO C
"Although your early days may be small, your latter days will be great." - Job 8:7
